Even though I tired my efforts ended up as a failure.
I tired to put her in our conversations. I did I could tell that she didn't want to be here and I think she only was because I didn't have a ride there. God I love both of them dearly and I hope it all works out. My thoughts ended up with sadness that day I was hurt that day because I love my friend and I couldn't help her I know that if I ask her what I can do, she'll just say nothing and push me away. i want to be there for both of them but how can I. For the first time in two months I thought about suicide.